This is such fun for me... Ready? GO.
For twelve years now, I've been in a constant state of the afters. After five trips down pregnancy and childbirth lane and two expeditions on adoption trail, here I am; in the after again. My sweet baby is 9 months old. 9 in, 9 out.
I always tell myself, "After I'm done with nursing, diapers, and babies and the tired that comes along with all of this, then I can do _________." Even though I love, adore, and want to drink in my babies; which is evidenced by the sheer number of them.
But nowadays, I don't want my babies to grow up. And I don't focus on the afters. Because God, has so graciously bopped me on top of the head, with these words: "But this is what I have for you." It's like He cracked an egg on top of my freshly straightened hair and let the raw flow of it all ooze down onto the rest of me. And I get it. At least most days I do.
The after is wrapped up in wanting something different. The now is where it's at.
**I should have explained this picture when I posted it last night... Gabi's new thing is the dress up like a "ballelina" and Levi soon asks if he can too. The girls have a couple unitards (like the one he's wearing in this picture) that he likes to try on and jump around in. He cries his ever loving eyes out to take it off, he's so funny!!! I know that his future self will not like that I posted this, but just this once, it must be done. What do you think of my Dancing with the Preschoolers couple?**